Memories

2007-06-03T19:23:00.000Z

Home

The end of the exams is approaching, I can see it peeking through the door which is slightly ajar. After exams its travelling and spending money time. Damn! The hole in my pocket is gonna get quite a lot bigger. With all the time I have not been putting into studying, I found this nice picture of KL..oh how I miss KL!

KL in all its glory without haze...

The river banks of Malacca, I think...looks a bit too pscyhedelic!

I'm going home to GOOD FOOD!!! MAKAN TRIPS PEOPLE!!! :D

*P.S. Reminder: Tell me what you want from UK, if not I won't get you anything...Yes I'm serious and No it is not a code for I'll give you a something anyway... oops and make sure I can afford it yea!..:P

- Back in 16 days -

2007-05-30T15:36:00.000Z

AT THIS TIME

This is a game I played in high school. My friend had came back from a trip overseas, and instead of telling me about it all at once, my friend shared it with me, day by day.

Every break we had, I would listen to what my friend did that day, a week ago on the holiday.

Well, now I shall play the same game, just looking into the future.

At this time next week, i'll be free.....
At this time next weekend, i'll be relaxing and trying to figure out the winner for the French Open...
At this time two weeks from now, I'll be in Paris and busy wondering if my best friend is in London already...
At this time next next weekend, I'll be hanging out in London and drinking Starbucks...
At this time three weeks later, I'll be HOME with my new toys and sleeping in my 'freezer'!... :D

- 20 days to go -

2007-05-21T15:23:00.000Z

Suprises...

i'm loving suprises.

Found out that well maybe things don't change that much after all.
Found out that maybe every thing is not as gloomy as it is made out to be.
Found out that I may not be growing up as fast as I feel I am.
Found out that the exams are kinda looking good cause well its gonna end.
Found out that I will be getting a 'suprise' from my parents for my birthday...

YAY!!!

- Back in 29 days -

*the mood has *poof* :)

2007-05-19T13:26:00.000Z

today

Today

TODAY

I really hate myself...

and I have no certain idea

WHY?

oh damn the idiot in me...

*&^%$#@ - feels like swearing continuously!

2007-05-14T01:52:00.000Z

*MOOD-Y*

Argh, I know I'm not supposed to blog but my personal message has a character limit on it and I could not fit everything I am feeling now into words.

Today was a day out and so was yesterday, but my mood has not changed one single bit.

I feel out of it, don't feel like myself, and most of all my first paper is in 3 days or less or slightly more, damn even my maths is going haywire.

I need to get out of this funk, if not my paper is so going to suffer.

So unstable right now I can just fall apart at any time. And yet the facade continues, I shall continue to hide behind a mask at least just to keep myself sane until the 6th of June.

The 6th of June will be a glorifying day, cause by then I hope and I pray my emo-ness will go away along with all the other nonsense.

just *poof* into thin air.....

*hope I wont do anything stupid for at least the next 3 ++ weeks, i think...

2007-04-26T16:52:00.000Z

Specially For MIMI

Vote for Mimi.. :)

MC F22 send to 36611 to vote.

No idea how much it costs but who cares.

VOTE FOR HER!...

Thank you!

2007-04-22T10:06:00.000Z

SHIFT + DELETE

I am going to learn how to end things.
To stop wondering and thinking too much.
It take time, but I want to belive that one day,
I will learn how to delete and not look back.
To learn how to press Shift + Delete on life!

- Going to be taking a break from blogging -

Will be back after the 6th of June..:)

2007-04-13T11:31:00.000Z

I miss Lilian!

Betting its because she got no common sense to stay longer thats why I feel her trip her was way too short. Her entertaining me for a measly 3 days was so not enough.

We went to Cardiff Bay - utterly boring.
We went Shopping - entertaining.
We went Makan Makan - YUMMY!..:D

Did not have too much time to go to too many places. Thank god did not really see too many things so no need to take so many pictures.

And OMG I miss Prague's food!

Guess its just the week to be missing everything!

On the high side - I'll be going back to KL fairly late but still its going Home right - 20th June will be back! I shall be free to go out starting from the 21st of June! YAY!

2007-04-11T17:18:00.000Z

Been a good 3 days but too lazy to blog about it now.

Today I only have 3 words!

NOISY EUNICE CHU!

Eeesh!

2007-04-09T10:29:00.000Z

Studying?

Well I'm supposed to be busy studying.

Weekend
Saturday - Went have dim sum then did a bit of shopping.
Sunday - Woke up late, went out for BBQ then went casino and finally a movie!

Oh crap, no studying this weekend as well.

DAMN!

Btw, Blades of Glory is damn stupid and funny..:)

Resolution - Study!!! but starts after Lilian goes back.

2007-04-07T21:20:00.000Z

Dedication to my friends

As I was trying to go to sleep, I thought about this post.

If its late at night and you want someone to talk to, my phone is always on for you.
I can be fast asleep but as long as I pick up the phone, I will place all my concentration into listening what you have to say.
If you want to cry and need a shoulder, I will be here for you. I will not be very good at comforting you neither will I know the words to say but I will stay till you feel better.
If you don't wanna listen to my junk and just want to talk, tell me so and I'll let you talk till your heart's content.
If there is anything bothering you that needs someone to listen and not be spoken out, I will hold both ears open so that whatever is said goes in one ear and comes out the other and shall never be repeated again.
If I'm being an idiot and not being real, just snap me back into reality and well my mature side will follow through.

I am willing to stand by your side and help you through whatever.

If I have hurt you, it was unintentional.
If I have made you sad, it was not my purpose to do so.
If I have pushed you away, I never meant for that to happen.
If anything that I have done has wronged you, I'm sorry.

*Disclaimer - to those who I don't consider my friend, I'm sorry this doesn't apply to you!

Storybook Love

2007-04-07T16:42:00.000Z

STORYBOOK LOVE by Willy DeVille

Come my love I'll tell you a tale,

Of a boy and girl and their love story.

And how he loved her oh so much,

And all the charms she did possess

Now this did happen once upon a time,

When things were not so complex.

And how he worshipped the ground she walked,

And when he looked he became obsessed.

My love is like a storybook story,

But its as real as the feelings I feel.

My love is like a storybook story,

But its as real as the feelings I feel.

And he said:

"Don't you know i love you oh, so much,

and lay my heart at the foot of your dress."

And she said:

"Don't you know that storybook loves,

Always have a happy ending."

Then he swooped her up just like in the books

And on his stallion they rode away.

My love is like a storybook story,

But its as real as the feelings I feel.

My love is like a storybook story,

But its as real as the feelings I feel.

P.S. anyone who can find the mp3 for this song please send it to me!

2007-04-07T13:42:00.000Z

Back from Prague

Trip to Prague, lasted 5 days and 4 nights.
I still can smell the aroma of food and well the food in Prague was lovely.
I enjoyed my trip very much. I don't have pictures as usual, no suprise there!

But here is something I bought!

Absinth!

Now its STUDY time.

Been way up in the clouds recently and its time for me to come down but sometimes its hard.

I long to go back to KL but then again time flies by so quickly that I know I will be back very soon.

Current Timeline

Study -> Exams -> Home!

2007-03-29T14:51:00.000Z

Bored, not this time

Usually I don't blog cuz I got nothing to say but recently there has been way too many things going on that when I think about it I get too lazy just thinking about blogging about it.
During one of the busy days, we ended up in Hard Rock Cafe and I saw this.

Eric Clapton's White Fender Strat

Beautiful guitar right? I adore his music but I know a much bigger fan of his so this is dedicated to him.

Budak bising, cepat datang Cardiff dan belanja saya makan di Hard Rock Cafe...:P

2007-03-20T01:22:00.000Z

COINCIDENCES

I hate coincidences. It is a coincidence that I happened to be here. It is a coincidence that I meet people who I assume are friends. It is a coincidence that lots of people think about the same thing at the same time. Right?

Coincidences Suck!

It makes me change my perception of things and then it makes me realise certain things which I do not want to realise.

Why can't I control everything. I want to control what happens to me. Who wants coincidences in their lives. Something that happens that they don't know about. Well I for one do not want or need coincidences in my life.

Coincidences Stay Away from ME!!!

2007-03-18T17:23:00.002Z

DISAPPEARING ACT

I want to disappear from the world just for a day.
Just to see whether the world will notice that I am not here.
Just to see if there is one person in the world to realise I have gone.
Just to test the waters and glimpse into the future.
Just the feeling of wanting to know what I do not know.

Can a person really just disappear, without leaving anything behind, no hopes, no broken dreams and no memories. Just an unknown leaving nothing behind. Nobody searching for that person. Making the person leaving just something to do without looking back.

The things weird people like me wonder about.

Anyways, time passed really quickly all of a sudden. It just seemed like a blur which I did not even see passing.

Was wondering, what would I do if I really could go back in time? Hmmm...

Feeling a little disorientated today and blogger hates me recently, been having posting problems. Then again I really am meant to not blog much anyway, cuz been not doing too much here. And its supposed to be 'Study time'

- Good Luck to all -

Missing those in KL, and in Manchester and my 'Mummy' in Sheffield...

2007-03-15T09:44:00.000Z

I AM A HYPOCRITE

Hypocrite - hyp·o·crite - a person who pretends to have virtues, moral or religious beliefs, principles, etc., that he or she does not actually possess, esp. a person whose actions belie stated beliefs.

In this case virtues or moral or religious beliefs do not apply because I barely have that anyway. But principles are always with me but then again I have no idea what I truly believe in sometimes and what I do not.

I stand by things which I do not believe in and those who I appreciate the most sometimes are the ones I know will not be with me when I truly require it. I walk all over those who really care and have been with me for ages. And I never have bothered to change.

As of the moment I am being hypocritical again. Sheesh!

Yes I am being emo...comes with missing class way too much. :)

On the other side, exams seems to be drawing near too fast too soon. Then it will be summer and then loads of people will be in UK to endure everything here. Kinda looking forward to it.

And thanks to everyone in KL, I miss KL food.
Missing nasi lemak very badly, PurpleMonkey, your fault.. - The solo better be perfect when I get back! :P

2007-02-21T14:06:00.000Z

BLEAH

Missed like 2 tutorials for this week yesterday, gonna die next week!
Was sick for the whole of yesterday, barely got out of bed so spent the whole time watching VM2 and well, accomplishment I finished it.

*I gotta stop watching tv series and start studying...

and great news I blew my budget this month already.

Best news - Just 2 more days till you will be back.. :D

2007-02-18T04:01:00.000Z

:)

a little high at the moment,
not that sleepy,
and not really homesick but
missing it nevertheless

But then again

Talking to you makes me smile
so at the moment I am happy.

You have just made my first day of Chinese New Year, great.

Thank You!

2007-02-17T18:45:00.000Z

COME HOME SOON...

I put away the groceries
And I take my daily bread
I dream of your arms around me
As I tuck the kids in bed
I don't know what you're doin'
And I don't know where you are
But I look up at that great big sky
And I hope you're wishin' on that same bright star
I wonder, I pray

And I sleep alone
I cry alone
And it's so hard livin' here on my own
So please, come home soon
(Come home soon)

I know that we're together
Even though we're far apart
And I'll wear our lucky penny 'round my neck
Pressed to my heart
I wonder, I pray

And I sleep alone
I cry alone
And it's so hard livin' here on my own
So please, come home soon
(Come home soon)

I still imagine your touch
It's beautiful missing something that much
But sometimes love needs a fighting chance
So I'll wait my turn until it's our turn to dance
I wonder, I pray

I sleep alone
I cry alone
Without you this house is not a home
So please, come home soon

I walk alone
I try alone
I'll wait for you, don't want to die alone
So please, come home soon
Come home soon
Come home soon

*Its a song by the way, not that good to create stuff..:P
by SheDaisy. Willing to send it if you want it.

Lastly again, Happy Chinese New Year!

2007-02-15T11:44:00.000Z

V Day

was yesterday!

Did damn a lot of photoshopping sooo now damn lazy to do somemore for my blog.. :)

I shall just use the picture I like the most and leave it at the end of this post.

CNY

is this weekend.

Paying hell a lot for a CNY dinner and maybe a CNY breakfast.

Wondering how I am gonna fulfil my gambling addiction this year.

And missing my home, family and friends in KL.

But well life goes on...

and I wish everyone a Happy Chinese New Year.

Together! ... :D

2007-02-10T18:09:00.000Z

MY CHOCOLATE BEAR

given by Vivien..Thank You!

In its original wrapping..untouched and uneaten..YET!

Unwrapped, but still uneaten...he looks so cute here!

>>
Fast Forward

Bear's head left, body has been eaten...very delicious.

------

Now!

Nothing left of Mr. Bear... :D

All eaten!

YUMMY!

2007-02-10T07:45:00.000Z

Heart of Stone?

Today, one of my cousins called. Realised how much I'm going to miss them during Chinese New Year because every new year for a whole week every night, I only see them.
We gamble and hang around till very late in either one of the houses. We'll play till we take out practically all our ang pau money to place on the table. There's always one who wins the most and one who loses a lot but well the money is still in the family right...

Thinking of them, I remembered something my cousin brother asked me to try one day.

1. Think as hard as you can, and then list your ten closest friends, dearest to your heart from you were born until now.
2. Keep the ten in your mind, now think when was the last time you spoke to each one of them, the last time you called them out for a drink, the last time you saw them and the last time you showed them that you cared.
3. Now of all the ten people that you listed, take away one, just ONE that you can bear to never see again in your whole life, never to talk to or even to meet by coincidence.
4. After that, take another friend off the list, one that you will never ever see again or talk on the phone, just gone out of your life.
5. Can you bear it?

At the time, I did this, my mind was clear. It was set. I threw away one person off the list without a thought in my head. With no regrets. I did not care, I told him that my heart was made of stone so I did this without shedding a tear for the friend that I would never ever have contact with again.

Now, I wonder if I really would be able to bear it if the person was truly gone. If I were never to meet, never to exchange a friendly word. Whether my heart was truly hardened towards the person. Mostly, if I were to do this again if I would choose the same person, and if I did would I shed a tear this time.

Can you imagine, someone truly gone, disappeared. You'll never see them again. Never in your entire lifetime.

The purpose of this test is not to make you sad or to make you cry. Its plainly just for you to realise how certain people mean so much to you over the years. Sometimes, one of you has to be bold enough to take the first step.

The realisation sometimes will sink in a little later but I know that the realisation will happen, come sooner or later.

To my friends, I always care even though I suck at showing it.
To my cousins, I miss you guys, and have a good chinese new year. (Weng Yi Ko, collect my ang paus but please don't collect the money in it for yourself as well)

Thanks Weng Yi Ko, for the call and for this, my realisation.

- 'Dedicated to those who care enough to venture forward and take the first step' -

2007-02-09T16:05:00.000Z

Brrr...It Snowed!

Two days in a row, I had to get up damn early in the morning thanks to the snow. Well today wasn't that early but it felt early to me. Went off to be photographer and lost nice beautiful sleep time.

Well, snow was nice and white in the beginning. In the middle, was wet and slippery and turning to ice. In the end, there was no more ice and just puddles left on the floor. :)

Playing with snow is fun and kinda cool. Your hands tend to get numb after playing way too long which was what happened today. Bute Park is dam big, and well it is really nice in this weather, different but nice.

Cold but eventful day.

Here are pictures, with the main focus being SNOW!

Talybont North, where I stay...

Bute Park, where I obviously don't stay

The park was lovely, loads of trees covered with snow and beautiful white snow covered the whole field.

Today I can finally say, I played with snow... :)

2007-02-04T16:03:00.000Z

Tagged by 'Mummy'

Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read you blog!

Weird = odd, unusual.

1. I get really really horrible withdrawal symptoms when I don't have internet.
2. I think really hard about the minor details and don't think about the important stuff at all.
3. I act like a kid around the certain few that I trust enough.
4. I must have a clock or a watch around me at all times.
5. I will think either think a lot or just be plain impulsive when it comes to shopping.
6. I act the opposite of what I think or feel.

Now, I'm gonna bend the rules cause I can't think who else reads my blog and well basically I'm lazy soooo.... I'm not going to tag anyone.Hehe.

Out of curiousity, why is the number 6 chosen for this purpose?

Laters.

2007-02-04T03:15:00.000Z

"Where'd You Go?"

by Fort Minor

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,

Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,

"I don't understand why you have to always be gone,

I get along but the trips always feel so long,

And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone,

'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,

But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,

But when I pick up I don't have much to say,

So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,

That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',

Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,

Me and the rest of the family here singing

"Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone.

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone,

Please come back home...

You know the place where you used to live,

Used to barbecue up burgers and ribs,

Used to have a little party every Halloween with candy by the pile,

But now, you only stop by every once and a while,

Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,

With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,

I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,

You can call me if you find that you have something to say,

And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,

That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',

Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,

Me and the rest of the family here singing

"Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone.

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone,

Please come back home...

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,

That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',

Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,

For why you're not around, and feeling so useless,

It seems one thing has been true all along,

You don't really know what you've got 'til it's gone,

I guess I've had it with you and your career,

When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it...

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone.

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone,

Please come back home...

A while ago, you gave me this song,

Back when times were great,

When things were different,

Now I listen and I wonder,

If everything will ever be the same again.

I want things to be the same.

I want things to not be this way.

When you're not around things are different and

I miss you so.....so tell me where'd you go.

And please come back home......soon...

2007-01-30T16:32:00.000Z

OF HOLIDAYS AND BITTER ENDINGS

Stopped posting after the 2nd week. Procrastinated way too much and got way too tired due to lack of sleep.

Kept going out and hanging around. Missed KL so much.

Had great food. Had great times. Heard great jokes...Miss being back home.

Saw loads of friends. :) Went for parties. Went mamaking. And gambled just a little bit.

Damn. I miss KL.

Good times seriously do end way too fast.

Miss all you guys...and random word monkey, you better make sure you fulfill your promise..:P

Thanks for the greatest short holiday home, ever...

2006-12-25T01:23:00.000Z

2nd Week!..

Monday till Wednesday
- Cameron Highlands, had steamboat and barbeque dinners. Nice weather, it was around 16 every day. Played computer games and mahjong the whole time there..:D

Thursday
- Stayed home and slept, and went out for dinner to my aunt's place.

Friday
- Slept again!..:)

Saturday
- Went to an Xmas party, met all my old friends. Nice and I had fun.

Sunday
- Had dim sum, and was with my cousins and family for the rest of the day.

Christmas this year is very quiet. Nothing much was planned and other complications have arose. Nevertheless, Merry Christmas.

2006-12-18T01:03:00.000Z

1ST Week at Home.. :)

Monday
- Arrived in KLIA at 9.15
- Came out of airport at 9.45
- Went to eat nasi lemak at Naili's in Sentul
- Came home and slept... 'I've missed my bed sooo much'

Tuesday
- Slept most of the day
- Ended up too lazy to go out and procrastinated for part of the day
- Cousins came over and we played computer games for the rest of the day

Wednesday
- Woke up early to watch morning cartoons
- Left for Help in the early afternoon (a bit sweatening, i know)
- Was brought to The Curve to eat Sakae
- Went to Ikea, to eat ice-cream
- Back to college to wait for everyone to finish class
- Back in The Curve, hung out at Kim Gary drinking yin yeong..:)
- Christmas dinner at Italiannies..yummy..:)
- Mamaking session in Bangsar's Pelita
- Got home at 12.35 - :D

Loads of ss-ing on this day, no pictures for me to upload though. Pictures are somewhere around. Missed everyone loads, lots changed but certain things will never changed. Felt great to go out again with them after so long. Laughed till my tummy ached.
All in all a great day - great food, great company and most of all great memories.

Thursday
- Woke up with no plans
- Wanted to have breakfast at Lucky Garden but no luck with parking
- Ended up in Mid Valley Megamall
- Had breakfast at Burger King
- Watched Eragon
- Played Blackjack and lost a bit

Day was good overall. :) Happy that I had the chance to be with him on his last day here before he went back for Christmas. Hoping to see him again soon.

Friday
- Woke up late with unconfirmed plans again
- No lunch because I was rushing to The Curve
- Ended up in K teman-ing people, and sneaking in sushi into the K room
- Had dinner at Bar-B-Q Plaza...Yum Yum, courtesy of CCM..:P
- Supper at TGIF's, something full of chocolate - DELICIOUS!
- Got home at 11.59...:) (before curfew..:P..curfew was 12)

Always looking for great food and new joints to go to. Caught up with recent developments and realised I have changed a little over time. Nevertheless, alls good and I wish that we will do this again while I am still here. Never realised how much I missed this until it was gone.

Saturday
- Went for Tanglin Nasi Lemak
- Settled air tickets to go back to Cardiff (URGH)
- Went down to Malacca
- Went for fish ball kuey teow mee.
- Ate home-cooked dinner.
- Went for satay celup. (35 sticks for 2.50 pounds - Yea!)
- Went for tong sui.
- Got home at 12.25. (No curfew in Malacca..:P)

Sunday
- Woke up in time for lunch.
- Had Duck Mee... :)
- Came back to KL.
- Had a nice Chinese dinner at roadside stall. (Cheap food..:P)

YAY! ~ It's all about the food!~

-7 days to Christmas-

2006-12-12T23:27:00.000Z

BACK IN KL...:D

I love being home.

It's great to be reminded how much my parents love and miss me. It's great that I get to eat everything I want now and no one complains that the place is too far. It's great that everyone I call whom I forgot to inform that I'm coming back are so pleased, they drop whatever they are doing just to talk to me. It's great that everyone will end class by the end of this week so that will make them free to be my driver..:)

I love not needing to walk everywhere. I love being home and sleeping in my icebox. I love not needing to cook.

Most of all I love the distance. I can just stay in my room and be alone, and I do not need to see anyone but family. Its great to eat dinner with my parents and order everything and not needing to pay the bill.

Less emo here also, no time to think so much. But part of me still doing so and I heard a quote which I should follow : 'Like before is gone'

GONE, and I shall never think about getting it back, never ever again.

:)

-12 days to Christmas-

2006-12-08T07:47:00.000Z

Last Post In Cardiff For The Year

Am packing my stuff to go home right now. Feeling lazy and wanting to go back to sleep but my bed has no more sheets cause am washing them soon. Bag is full and heavy, i think i overbought cause it was too empty earlier. Leaving Cardiff at 1.55 today to go to London where I've no internet but I may end up at Starbucks looking for Wi-Fi just incase I can't stand not having internet. Hope I don't end up with withdrawal symptoms again if not will end up paying for expensive internet on board SIA planes. Nothing much to say really. This is just a 'crap and post' post cause I'm just feeling a bit emo. Was looking for someone again which made me feel dam emo. I hope the feeling will go away soon.

Anyway it seems that London is cold so gotta bundle up. :D

Approximately 4 hours before I'm outta Cardiff.
Approximately 7 hours before I'm in London.
Approximately 2 1/2 days before I'm leaving UK.
Approximately 3 1/2 days before I reach KL.
Approximately ? days before I stop being emo everytime I think! (Hope its soon)
Looks like statistics cant measure feelings...

Well on the high side,

-17 days to Christmas-

2006-12-05T11:15:00.000Z

I'll Be Home For Christmas

Well, let's just say I cannot truly appreciate the words of this song till now and at this time next week, I'll be home. I listen to the one sung by Michael Bolton, but take your pick of singers, loads of them cover this song. Anyone wants the song, let me know and I'll send it to you.

I'll be home for Christmas

You can count on me

Please have snow and mistletoe

And presents on the tree.

Christmas Eve will find me

Where the love-light gleams

I'll be home for Christmas

If only in my dreams.

I'll be home for Christmas
You can count on me
Please have snow and mistletoe
And presents on the tree.

Christmas Eve will find me
Where the love-light gleams
I'll be home for Christmas
If only in my dreams.

-20 days to Christmas-

2006-12-01T16:14:00.000Z

NO MORE RUBBISH

Alright let's get down to business.

I'll be back in around 10 days and well my bag is quite empty so I'll be able to bring back some stuff if you guys want anything from here.

Lets see, we have chocolates and celebration packs and stuff like that. If you guys want some, I buy a big pack to share? I wanna get Christmas crackers but will we be spending our Christmas together this year? Hmmm....any thoughts. Anyways seriously tell me what kind of things you want me to bring back for you, if you don't ask, I don't get anything for you. :)

Thoughts of going home make me so happy. Can stop staring at my room's four walls for 6 weeks. Yay!

7 more days till I end classess.
8 more days till I stop sleeping in this mini room.
9 more days till I can finally stop dreaming about going home.
10 more days till I board my plane.
11 more days till I arrive home.

When I arrive home, my present will be waiting for me...:D

2006-11-30T08:03:00.000Z

GONE?

I sent you off early yesterday morning. I woke up early in the morning to bring you to the station. I wonder if you can see my fear through your joy and happiness. I'm waiting right now to hear from you but then again there is the part of me telling me that you will not message me anyway so why am I still waiting.

I hate myself for waiting.
I hate myself for not being able to let go.
I hate myself for not forgetting the good times.
I HATE ME FOR BEING ME.

I'm so damn insecure now. I guess its alright since I won't be seeing you for ages. You won't have to see me this way. No one will have to.

And I'll be HOME soon.

2006-11-26T11:48:00.000Z

A Not So Quiet Weekend

It took me approximately a day and a half to finish DN Angel. It's quite an interesting show and the stealing of new stuff kept me hooked. I especially loved his pet rabbit, With/Wiz..no idea how to spell his name but so cute. I want a With plushie but don't think it's available. :(

Had to walk all the way to the bus station just to meet Rohan. Happy that he came. Went to Tesco to buy food for him that night so he wouln't starve in my flat which is devoid of food that I buy. And I bought pillows. Happy. Love having lots of pillows.

Brought him to Cardiff Castle the next day. Just realised it has been ages since I woke up before 10. Paid 5.60 for entry into Cardiff Castle for entry to grounds and a tour of the castle. Can't imagine how it would be like to live in a castle. It feels like a scene out of a fairytale.

The castle is big and it had this windy little staircases which made me so dizzy walking up and down them.

Later, we just stayed at my place for the rest of the day talking and catching up. It was nice. Sent him off to the station at around 7.

Gonna miss having him around when he leaves to Aust soon.

2006-11-23T19:38:00.000Z

YUM YUM

Today is a good day. I had japanese food for lunch at Tenkaichi. After craving for real japanese food for so long, it felt good to finally eat it. Had california maki, salmon sushi and unagi handroll. It doesn't sound like much but it was really filling and satisfying. Best part is Tenkaichi offers 20% off during lunch which helps my purse a little.

Now just have to wait till Tai Wu opens up a branch in Cardiff so that I can have Sam Siu Min and Dim Sum. :)

I spent most of last night surfing the web for food websites instead of doing my EU tutorial. I made it my duty to help Lil regain her appetite if not she won't be seeing much of me when we are back in K.L. I hoped the websites helped.

Just realised how much I miss K.L. food. My list of cravings is growing longer by the day.

1. Kerang from Nong and Jimmy
2. Nasi Lemak from Tanglin, Help and NST
3. Rakuzen and/or Kampachi
4. Jogoya
5. Ebi Tempura from Sakae
6. Meatballs from Ikea Restaurant
7. Brickfields Char Kuey Teow
8. De Chiengmai (With a definite group of people - its been long overdue le)
9. Satay Celup
10.Ikan Bakar from Malacca
11.Bak Chang and Nyonya Chang
12.Pan Mee from MCS Lucky Garden
13.Korean BBQ beef
14.Beefball noodles from Soong Kee
15.Fried Chicken from Yong Tat
16.Yin yeong from Choi Keng
17.Cheese fondue with lamb
18.Indian rice from Nirvanas
19.Yong Tau Foo from Madras Lane
20.Lamb from San Francisco Steakhouse
21.Steaks from Jake's
22.Orcien from Patong
23.Fish Head at Jalan Tiga
24.Otak otak from Muar
25.Satay from Malacca
26.Escargots baked in cheese and garlic sauce from Rendezvous
27.BKT in Puchong
28.Dim Sum from Cheras/PJ/Imbi Plaza
29.Mongolian Sotong from Sai Kong
30.Fish Head Curry from Gak Lei Mm Ho Sek
31.Naili's Corner
32.Steven's Corner (with all my cousins and this time we'll eat till RM 300..:p)
33.Roast Duck from Petaling Street
34.Tong Sui (Ang Tau Zhui / Hak Lo Mai) from KTZ

What else do I want? Anyway this list is not exhaustive and more may come the moment I think of it.

Sad that I've no pictures of all the food, bet you'll be drooling by now. Guess you just have to use your imagination.

I dedicate this post to those who have no appetite or are too sick to eat or those who want to eat but cannot get their hands on the food or lastly those who can get the food but do not have the company to eat with...I will be back to accompany you to go food hunting soon.. :)

Dream of ......FOOD, GLORIOUS FOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!

2006-11-22T18:29:00.000Z

POKER, POKER AND MORE POKER

Greatest Bond film of all time.

Nah, I'm exaggerating. It has poker, damn nice to watch people who are good play poker though in a show it is all set up.

Wanted to watch this in KL but since here got people want to watch so just tagged along.

Felt the show was a little too long though.

Especially since I went through a 2 hour tutorial looking like a blurcase who did not study. Insurance is so tiring.

And I have to finish Land, Company and EU assignment before I go back. And maybe Tort as well.

That is quite a lot to do. DAMN!

2006-11-20T13:38:00.000Z

TOO FAR AWAY TO SAY MUCH

I want to be back so I can kick your ass. Stupid IDIOT.

I want to be back so I can see you again.
I want to be back and claim all my free lunches and movies.
I want to be back and give you all that I've bought.
I want to be back to show you that I'll be there even though I'm far away.
I want to be back just to explain to you how much I care.

I'll be back soon if you just hold on for a little while more...

2006-11-19T23:09:00.000Z

NOT THIS SHIT AGAIN

I'm just so sick and tired of this shit. I don't like being scolded by people who don't even know me. Do you not have any shame? Sheesh. Plain f***-ing rude. You can never restrict me and the more you do it, the more I will rebel. Watch me...stupid IDIOT.

I can't say I hate a person I don't even know but from what I know so far, you are so joining the people in the freaking lake. Please have the courtesy to at least tell me who the f*** you are when you want to ask me my name.

IDIOT!

*I cannot differentiate the truth from the lies which you told me anymore. How am I supposed to?*... :(

DO ME A FAVOUR AND JUMP INTO THE LAKE BEFORE I PUSH YOU IN.

-F*** It All-

2006-11-16T18:06:00.000Z

~~~~~~~~~~

You are always on my mind, no matter where you are and how near or how far.

~~~~~~~~~~

I want to tell you the things I've seen.
I want to talk to you, and keep you forever talking to me.

I want to have your company, for as long as I can.

I want to be selfish and not share you.

I want to be the only one who is always with you.

But then I know that you're studying,

that you're working hard,

that you have also sacrificed something,

and all just to achieve your goal.

A goal which will bring you closer to me.

A goal which will allow you to be here.
A goal which will allow you to have my company.

A goal which no one knows if it will be achieved.

I hope it will work out. I pray it will work out. I want it to work out.

Then we can move on...

2006-11-15T12:04:00.000Z

Weekend and A Monday

Spent the whole time in Manchester. Went on a Friday and came back on a Monday. Nope no pictures to document my trip, well at least none from me...:)

Great food, great time, great company...yea yea...you are allowed to take note of the order of importance to me.

Train rides are dumb and long. It makes me sleepy. I finished one book and wasted 30 messages on the train. I wonder if I will ever be able to finish 1000 messages in a month. It seems impossible at this time.

The prestige is a great movie if you can understand it. Just how I like it.

Tai Wu is my friend. I know how to make my way there by myself now I think. Nah I bet I can, call it a gut instinct. Tai Wu has nice Sam Siu Fan and Sam Siu Min. And well their dim sum is good too. :D

Things which have the MU logo and wording plastered over it is overpriced. There is only one thing worth buying in that shop and well I cannot afford it. Comes with the problem of being poor. Trafford Centre is nice. Beautiful Xmas decorations and free Baileys. I also learnt two random facts.
- one in ten fishes are afraid of water
- if you put a slice of ham in a dvd player, you will watch a movie about pigs.
(p.s. if you put a slice of cheese, you will watch a movie about cows)

Little rooms can fit lots of people, namely 4. My mummy can get a new job as a plumber. And so can Lil, using a plunger to pump the drainage system. Eating snacks at 3 is never a good idea though it was quite nice food. And also the floor is hard. Lil's computer has weird songs like Kinki Kids. The heater is really hot and someone is a real expert at boiling hot water.

ASDA is nice. Not that I went but I heard that it is nice. You can chat at anytime and anyplace, just as long as you have internet access. And watches with bubbles are really cute but oh so impractical. There is a huge NEXT, M&S, Debenhams and everything else under the sun in Manchester for the benefit of those who do not realise this. When you get something that you crave for, the feeling is irreplaceable.

ASDA chocolate chip cookies make me eat excessively. Lil is a really really light sleeper. And Michelle really likes football. And I really really love Youtube for bringing me Ranma.

Shiwen cooks well and David talks a lot of crap. But enjoyable company.

Slept till 10 and then went buy egg tarts. Yummy. Paid a lot for it though. Had bubble tea as well.Nice!

Train ride again and I'm back in Cardiff.

Pics from my mummy: http://shelbychin.multiply.com/photos/album/14

Pics from me: Non-existent.

2006-11-14T20:08:00.000Z

Crazy over Photoshop.

Look who's missing?

2006-11-08T19:14:00.000Z

A PICTURE PORTRAYS A THOUSAND WORDS

2006-11-05T16:09:00.000Z

I Miss You

Been a great weekend. Spent it mostly sleeping and chatting. Best of all were the few precious hours I got chatting and laughing. Seems like all my worries went away for those hours. Browsed through a few sites and one thing caught my eye. Cute picture of Boo, saying

Photoshopping done averagely but it gets the message across. Nope I did not do the photoshopping, credits to whoever did it.

Well, since my mood is all good today, I shall spare the burden of the emo posting for another day.

Hope your weekend has been as great as mine.

I'm Back???

2006-11-04T13:38:00.000Z

Sheryl's Back?

I have been intending to post something up for quite awhile now but its a bit too emo a post to start re-blogging again with. So well I guess my emo post will come later.

I love my new layout. Mimi says that she prefers me to post rather than me altering my layouts. I'm gonna find the time to do my own again soon but knowing me, I don't think that it'll be happening soon.

I don't understand why everyone has become so busy since they came here because honestly, I'm being driven out of my mind with boredom. Doing tutorial work does not take that much time, seriously. Attending classes which lasts an hour is also way short. So unusual for me to have so much spare time on my hands.

Well..First post...after ages...feels bit weird since recently all I've been doing is writing for myself. Well I hope I can keep it up for a bit...

I finished Ouran High School and here's my favourite character.....

Honey-senpai

Well there ends my first post.....

Caring About People...Good Or Bad?

2005-01-13T15:51:00.001Z

Of Confusion And Realisations

I care too much! I hate caring so much as I have learnt early in my life that if you care too much about some one they will leave you one day. Friends no matter how close they are can one day turn their back on you. The green-eyed monster is an idiot who constantly haunts me. In any relationship which I have managed to salvage until now something major always seems to happen. So why bother? But i can't not bother.
My friends are taking exams and I feel the stress. Friends seem down and I am concerned as hell. Insomnia is caused not by my own problems but infact it is due to wondering whether this next friendship will work out or not?Or what have I done wrong that day. I want to stop caring, I really do. How can I?I've been back stabbed so many times that I can't feel the pain physically no more but in my heart it just tears me apart.
I know that I always say that I don't care, but that's what I want only but it's not what I feel deep inside. I know that a part of me dies everytime some one hurts me but it's just never shown. I don't want people to misunderstand and I don't wnat people to think I'm weak but if someone takes away a friend of mine, I shatter like glass and I piece myself together slowly through nights of thinking.
I'm weird I know and I realise that I won't change. My life is a never-ending play where I put on a damn mask and continue with my journey, treading lightly so as not to stir any of my past emotions or my feelings at the moment. I lose my cool now and then but sometimes they just abruptly shoot out uncontrollably. I hate losing my cool. I hate caring so much. I hate losing my friends. I hate losing my sleep for others. But most of all I hate it when I let down my mask and someone just gets you back because you did that. My mask and my wall is my saviour or is it not?.....Your heart is the moost valuable part of you - Physically And Emotionally-...from a person whose heart has gotten smaller and smaller as people break it and steal pieces from it...

From the song Masquerade from Phantom Of The Opera

Masquerade
Paper faces on parade
Masquerade
Hide your face so the world will never find you
...
Masquerade
You can fool any friend who ever knew you
Masquerade
Leering satyrs, peering eyes...
Masquerade
Run and hide but a face will still pursue you

To my friends who watched this show with me...now you know why I adore this song so much...

-In a state of depression-

Apology Accepted?...

2005-01-06T17:07:00.001Z

My Sincere Apology
Jokes from me were played,
All in fun i said,
But the timing was out,
And in return all you did was shout.

My heart felt a burning,
As the pain was carving,
All I can do is apologize,
And let you scold till I cry.

Never letting my feelings in the way,
I still pretended that everything was okay,
But I hated my guts and bravery,
Especially when it hurts the people dear to me.

Uncalled for as it may be,
A prankster I am deep inside me,
I don't intend to make you mad,
And later you will feel sad.

Actions that show I don't care,
A hoax from the beginning just because I dare,
The depth of my concern being too much,
Afraid that people would find me weird and such.

No more that I can say,
There is so much hell to pay,
The truth beneath the lies,
The depth of when I apologize,
I can't show feelings well,
Couldn't even cry no matter how hard I fell,
All I can say is,
From me an apology is this.
To the one that I have wronged, please accept my dedication of this to you...Nothing further more to say but I'm Sorry!!!

Bored Bored Bored

2004-12-27T12:14:00.000Z

Hey
Blogging again...
Sudden inspiration to do so. Feeling non-existent today and had the most boring day of my life.
Losing friends is always hard. I assumed that just because we were in the same college, we would remain close. Boy was I wrong. I feel regret that I never made the extra effort to keep in touch with them. Eventhough they didn't really bother I Know it's my fault cause I thought of it just didn't take action. It just takes one person to take action and then everything will be ok. At least I assume so. Now I shall never know now would I.
Nevertheless when I went to the party last week I felt so jealous that them DU people were so close and never lost touch compared to us. I know my fault again.Well at least I managed to have one heart-to-heart talk with one of my old best buddies.Never realized how much I missed him when he left until that day we talked again.Hope that if I go to UK he and I will keep in touch and stay close.
What can I do now that we are all far apart.I can't help it now, can I?My new friends rock, they really do just kinda feel out of touch with my old friends.Losing them will be hard.I definitely won't lose touch with those who I am really close to but still I hate losing friends.If I can mend friendships with those whom have hurt me so badly, what more this.
I miss my old friends. I hope that my new friendships will last longer than this and I pray that I shall get hurt no more.
I sound so ego in this post...Feel like I'm doing everything for me only...AM I?...(Shall think about that)
~New is silver, Old is gold but when the gold loses its appeal,silver takes over~
CHANGES HAPPEN AND I CAN'T DO A THING ABOUT IT